Daddy's Girls

Growing up playing a sport I only had friends who were daddy's girls.  Their dads drove them to practice, played catch with them in their free time, and never missed the weekend games.  I remember being a daddy's girl when I was really young. I have memories of us laughing, getting each others jokes and annoying mom with our relaxed attitudes.  Slowly as I started growing up you began to disappear.  It was a slow disappearance but I see it so much bigger and clearer now.  I remember as a girl wishing that you would put forth even an ounce of the effort that my friends dads did.  I wanted you to care more about me and what I was doing with my life than getting a new pack of cigarettes or another 40 pack of beer.  I hated having to figure out what I was going to say on the way to games to my teammates when they asked where you were again and why they had never seen you around. For a while I bought your excuses but you raised a smart girl dad and I knew deep down that what was going on was bull shit. As the years went on I lost you more and more until the man I remember having so much fun with was no where to be found.  The drugs and alcohol ruined you and it makes me so sad to know that you are a different person now. I wish that you would have been stronger, I wish you wouldn't have given up so easily because I know the man you used to be would have been so embarrassed by this person who consumes your body now. No matter who consumes you the actions you've made toward me mom and your other daughters are inexcusable. I'll forever love the man who worked two job to support his new family. The man who taught me about God, Jesus, and all the worship songs.  Who taught me how to fish and how to push moms buttons just right. and the man who taught me that a lie is always worse than any truth, no matter how bad.  and if that man is still in you somewhere I want to wish him a happy birthday!  I want him to know that I love him and he can call me anytime.  I hope you have a good birthday dad and that someone can show you the love that I no longer have the strength to give you.  I miss you! I hope you find your strength again! 

To all the daddy's girls out there be thankful for the number one man in your life who taught you things your mom couldn't have, and who gives the advice that brings tears to your eyes, and who looks at you with such proud eyes.  Go call your dads ladies and thank them!